Umi and Natalie...
Ok, Let me tell you how bad of a mother I am...This little girl, has not had a birthday party since Maddux died. Let me explain... January, February and March are extremely bad months for me. If you read my blog, you would know this. My friend coined this my "Dark Period." Maddux died on February 10th, and Natalie's birthday is February 15th. This past year, especially, I was hit with deep depression...Didn't know that did you? Honestly, there were days, that I didn't get out of bed...
This year we were in Atlanta when Natalie celebrated her birthday. I decorated our hotel room door, but because of the schedule, we couldn't do cake or celebrate. Thank God, her team and coaches sang 'Happy Birthday' to her. When we got home, we again went full force with cheer and school...
Now I am not trying to make excuses for my lack of celebration regarding her birth. It's just hard. I know she doesn't understand...
So this week, when Mike was home, we had a Mommy, Daddy, Daughter day. Just the three of us. We took her to lunch, and then had a surprise for her. She had been wanting this 'monkey baby...' I looked for it online though Ashton Drake Gallery...Then I found a Doll Store locally that had one in stock...cheaper. SAME DOLL! WOOHOO!!! Natalie had no clue where we were going...and truly was surprised when we got there. She loves baby dolls, and still plays with them. We told her she could have any baby in the store...this was her special day to celebrate her birthday. She walked straight to the Monkey Baby, and hasn't put her down since...I still gotta bake her a cake.
1 comment:
I thought that was a real monkey--seriously!! :) I know what you are talking about! Our sweet Cicely was stillborn on March 13, 2003 on March 2, 2004 our Riley was born--she is now 5 and I really struggle with her birthday although I seem to do the opposite--I make a big HUGE deal to, I think, keep myself occupied and busy and kinda stress myself out! Pain is hard and we all deal differently, I think our children do and will understand either way, its the love that we show that counts!!! Love those pictures!! Bake that cake and have some for yourself :)
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